Randomness

 HIII- oh it's supposed to be a bit more formal I guess, my literature teacher would be reading it. Okay!

But, randomness.

What else do you expect, than the unhinged side of mine?

Let me be disorganised here, and type my heart out of whatever comes to my mind first, because we were given the freedom of writing the blog on anything, so literally writing on anything (I'm anyways a short story long person, and no I'm not flexing about it!!)

I feel really happy as I write this blog, because I just composed a new song in a language that I've never tried writing a song on even though I'm the most comfortable while speaking in it- Assamese. Ah yes, I randomly compose songs, like last night I composed a whole song being half asleep. 

I mostly compose hindi and english songs, tried to make one in Bengali (my mother tongue) once but kinda failed at the attempt, I mean the song sounded like "forced to be a song, not born to be a song". 

But, last night, I randomly had some tunes in my mind, it surprisingly gave off the vibes of having a chance to be an assamese song, so, yay! New language for writing songs unlocked!

That makes me mention, I'm from Assam, to be more precise- Guwahati. Now shifted to Mumbai. Oh how long of a journey it was!

I don't mean the journey just from Guwahati to Mumbai though, I mean, from me choosing Science in 11th being a NEET aspirant, to realising how I love to explore my creative potentials, to how music distracts me into it, to how I can't just sit down sacrificing everything for medical studies duh! And finally to convincing my parents to let me persue BAMMC in Mumbai, hehe!

Long journey. Yes it indeed was.

I do miss home, which includes my parents, surprisingly I miss my brother too (I thought I wouldn't, really), I miss my room, I miss my friends over there, it was a whole comfort zone of mine which I had to leave behind to work on my dreams in this new city, kilometres away from what I call home. 

However, what makes me take a sigh of relief is my college.

Now, everything has it's own dipole moment, right? Nothing is perfect. I might not know the flaws or the side of my college that might not be good, yet. But- 

What makes me really relieved is I can already see I go to a place that has experienced, trustworthy and reliable people guiding usin our lives ahead. 

What makes me relieved is, even if I'm too overwhelmed, I am somehow not distracted during the lectures, rather I'm distracted INTO what is being discussed in the class. That just made me realise, that I am definitely doing something right here, I'm definitely at the right place, I definitely love everything here. 

This place, it's people, or- anything in here, might not be home to me yet.

But, it definitely feels like where I belong to. 

Trying to be a better self each passing day,

And trying to be happier in the musical way~✨

Enough of randomness I guess?

Actually it was nothing. I'm way more unhinged than writing just a random blog like this. 

Also, sorry ma'am! If I bored you hehe! I really had so much in my mind to write, that I went blank, and just decided to take up this- "Randomness" 

P.s. being unhinged, being random, is my kind of normal

Hehe

(hehe is my constant)